WHEN NOT SETTING A GOAL IS A GOOD THING

WHEN NOT SETTING A GOAL IS A GOOD THING

Sadly, I make them often despite my attempts to get things right.

I made a colossal one recently. As 2017 came to a close, the pressure to dream, plan, and set goals got to me. Though each of those can be wonderful and even necessary, like a toddler on their mama’s shirt, they tugged.

When I spent the morning catching up with my friend on the phone instead of playing cars with my boys when they were young, they tugged.

“Mommy, please play with me.”

I needed that tug.

“Mommy, Isaiah pulled his feeding tube out.”

I needed that tug too.

Other times the tug wasn’t necessary.

“Mommy, Elijah got one more skittle than I did.”

As parents, adults, and Christians deciding how much time and attention we should give to what tugs at us can be difficult. When the perceived need to set goals squeezed, I responded.

I found the most practical (and of course the cutest) blog planning worksheets I could find and carefully arranged them into a binder. My bold and seeming good goal was to plan out and write my blog posts for the entire year.

Since a new year typically brings a host of motivated and eager souls ready to set resolutions, I thought I’d create my own scripture based goal setting series. Sounded good to me. As you may have noticed I haven’t written a single post.

Nothing. Zip. Zilch. Nada.

Not because I haven’t tried but because I honestly haven’t been able to write. Since announcing my new series, I’ve started and since deleted at least five different posts. The calm waters I’d always experienced as a writer suddenly became turbulent. I hated to make a commitment I couldn’t keep but every time I tried to write the grace to write was clearly gone.

Lord, why can’t I write this series? I’ve made this commitment and some are expecting it.

My answer came after watching a touching movie portraying a World War II hero, Desmond Doss. Despite his refusal to bear arms, he wanted to serve God and county. He enlisted in the army to become a medic where he could serve by saving lives instead of taking them. Driven by his commitment to obey the ten commandments, he made it clear to his superiors and comrades that he would never take a human life. No one in his company took kindly to his decision and he willingly and lovingly paid a high price for his convictions. During an epic battle on Hacksaw Ridge, the fearless unarmed medic pulled over seventy wounded men to safety. In the heat of battle with gunfire all around him he refused to give up on his fellow soldiers. Praying the entire time, he lowered the first man down the ridge.

“Help me Lord to get one more. Just one more.”

Desmond’s words ring in my ears. He didn’t look beyond the one wounded man. His focus was solely on saving him and only when he accomplished that did he pray and ask God for one more. His trust in God’s ability to do through him what he could never have done alone is awe-inspiring. And convicting.

Since I began blogging, every post I’ve ever written has been as a result of something God has done or is working out in me. It has been written by inspiration of the Holy Spirit and out of a deep desire to see you give your whole heart to Christ and to see you draw near Him. I got caught up in the tug and set a goal I didn’t ask for God’s blessing upon. If Desmond hadn’t prayed he couldn’t possibly have saved so many lives.

I know who I really am and what I am capable of. Nothing apart from Christ.

Though writing may pale in comparison, I realized that for me, setting a goal of writing my blog posts for the year removed my trust in God to write through me, to whomever He wills and whenever He wills. Like Desmond however, it is lives I long to see saved. So, like him I now say regarding every blog post, every article, essay, poem or book,

“Help me Lord to get one more. Just one more.”

 

 

 

 

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7 Replies to “WHEN NOT SETTING A GOAL IS A GOOD THING”

  1. I loved this encouragement! I often find myself staring at a blank screen when I feel “I need to write” and only when I focus more on when He needs me to write does it come. Thank you for sharing!

  2. Calli, I saw that movie. How amazing was that man and how much did God bless his obedience? It is my “plan” to go day by day following God but that conflicts with the world’s tugs sometimes. May God bless your mind with words to share with our world! In Christ, Julie