WHEN THINGS DON’T GET BETTER

WHEN THINGS DON’T GET BETTER

In a recent post entitled Provision & Praise, I shared God’s faithfulness during my son Elijah’s emergency room visit several weeks ago. What began as a seemingly acute bout of stomach pain that was rather simple to diagnose and treat, is now much more.

Week one came and went and I thought he turned the corner. He did, but around it was only more pain. And no answers.

Today marks day 22 of my son giving me, that look. Day 22 of him saying, “Mommy, my tummy hurts. Mommy, I don’t feel good. Mommy, please help me. Mommy why can’t anyone help me? Mommy, please…please…!”

Still nothing definitive after:

  • Two emergency room visits
  • Repeated lab work
  • Multiple x-rays & ultrasounds
  • Visits to his family doctor, pediatrician and now a gastroenterologist
  • Four medications

Each provider has been outstanding and heaven sent. All are trying hard to determine the origin of his illness.

Hoping his pain level would hold out for next Thursday, when he is scheduled to be put under general anesthesia to have an upper and lower scope ran, tonight, his pain escalated.

It was the worst of the 22 days for him, by far. Holding him in my arms, gently stroking his hair, I prayed silently-desperately for him to have relief.

“God, give us wisdom I pray. Oh God, please strengthen our son,” I wept as I knelt just outside his room.

A great deal of pain has resurfaced at the sight of my son suffering. I know this look. I saw it in the eyes of my son Isaiah as he suffered through pain I can’t even begin to imagine.

I know this place. This place of complete helplessness. When you’re the one that’s supposed to kiss the boo-boo’s away, but you can’t.

So the question in my heart tonight is:

What do you do when things don’t get better?

Why is this question so important?

  1. Because things don’t always get better this side of Heaven. You’ve seen it in your own life or in the lives of those you love I’m sure.

    What comes of our faith when pain slowly tries to chip away at it?

  2. Because what we do then, is indicative of the true condition of our hearts.

    When days turn into weeks, weeks into months and maybe even months into years – what then? 

When Isaiah’s NICU stay turned from days, to weeks, to months and ultimately to almost a year long stay in NICU, my answer wasn’t pretty. In fact, its darkness matched that of my heart.

1 Corinthians 10:12-13 Wherefore let him that thinks he stands, take heed lest he fall.

  • I acknowledge today, in the midst of my own trial, that without God’s grace, I will surely fall. So, I run to his lap and curl up in the safety of his arms.

1 Peter 1:6-7 Wherein you greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, you are in heaviness through manifold temptations. That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.

  • It is hard to rejoice in seasons of trial. It seems nearly impossible, but when viewed through the lenses of faith, our fires have purpose. Whatever your flames look like today, along with mine, may our faith be found unto praise, honor and glory at our Lord’s appearing.

Luke 22:31-32 And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not and when thou are converted, strengthen thy brethren.

  • As I pray for you today, that your faith will fail not in spite of whatever trials you face, would you do the same for me, my husband and our precious son, Elijah? And, after we’re converted, may we each go strengthen our brothers and sisters.

Thank you in advance for approaching God’s throne on our behalf.

 

 

 

 

10 Replies to “WHEN THINGS DON’T GET BETTER”

    1. Hi Robbie, though the phrase may be, we both know, the act never is and so I sincerely thank you for praying for our family. The effectual, fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. I pray you and your family are well!

    1. Thank you sweet Rebekah, I greatly appreciate it. I am so thankful for fresh manna and new mercies every day. Praise God!

  1. Oh, dear Callie! What a powerful message! I’m praying to the God of all comfort, healing, and strength for your son and your family! Love you, friend.

    1. Precious Jean, thank you for your kind words and powerful prayers. Truly, that are appreciated. Much love to you my friend!

  2. Callie, dear one, my heart just aches for you and your family. We have run our own course of pain and suffering with my younger daughter and while not physical, the emotional scars are just as painful and run deep, both for her and for us. I will pray for you sister. I really believe the enemy is at work to dishearten God’s own, because he knows the time is near! I was just praying to God today and reminding myself that the one who could create something as complex as a human cell, and breathe life into dust can certainly help us to stand when life is tragic. Hugs and prayers! – Amy
    http://stylingrannymama.com/

    1. Oh Amy, how powerful your reflection on God’s power! We must keep our shields of faith up and our swords, that is, his word up at all times. In these days, it is vital. Thank you for your kind words and prayers. You are such a blessing!

  3. Oh, Callie! Can’t seem to swallow past the burning in MY throat. What a lovely gift you’ve given readers in the MIDST of your trial. Praying! You are near in my heart as well as the Father’s. More (((HUGS))).

  4. Hi CALLIE. This so reminds me of the song “Even if” by Mercy Me. When He could just say the word and everything would be fine but there are times waiting and praying is all there is. Even if He doesn’t answer immediately, our trust is still in Him. Not always easy, at least for me anyway. But His eye is on the sparrow and I know He’s watching your son. Love to you all.
    Myra